"Will I be regretting this decision I've made, 10 years from now?"
"Will my future self be wanting to go back in time to tell me to do that and stop trying to do this?"
I bet those questions crossed your mind at least twice after your school days. And yeah, it's actually quite worrying that we're turning in to adults; wanting to do what is right for ourselves, knowing that we're now responsible for our own actions.
But the younger you, the 6 years old version of yourself, wouldn't that kid be disappointed if you give up even before trying to do stuff, just because it is unfamiliar to you? Like, you wouldn't know how much you hated carrots till you had your first bite. You also wouldn't know how addictive a few games are till you play it. And, how would you know how awesome some TV Shows are if you didn't try to watch it?
Okay, tak payah versi zaman muda la, the first time you slept late knowing you got an 8AM class the next day. Bet you regretted that decision but hey, at least you had fun staying up late to play games or hanging out with your friends or eating at a mamak watching football. It's your bad choice but you had fun! (Probably not so fun during the next morning class tho! Ahha) But there's always a bright side to all of the bad choices. Maybe, the night that you stayed up made you more focus till you upgraded to another level in the game you're currently playing after being stuck in the same level after so long. Or finding out something shocking about your friend or watching your favorite footballer scoring a goal with this brand new skill that's never been seen before, live, at the mamak stall you're hanging out.
In every choice, there's some consequences. The bad ones can be a life lesson and the good ones will help you on improving yourself.
My point is, 10 years from now, I don't want you to look back and question yourself, "Asal lah aku tak go with the flow and try je benda tu time muda dulu?". Do not let any opportunity go to waste. Spread your wings, gain new experiences, get to know new cliques and learn something new, everyday.
Be bold and face the unfamiliarity!
P/s: This post was inspired by this amazing person. Thank you for the idea, future chef!
It's really upsetting that I don't have any pictures to upload to go along with this post. But I hope this piece of memory that I'm going to write is enough for any of you readers to imagine how my last year of Canteen Day went; on my last year of secondary school!
Okay, so, where do I start? (This is obviously a rhetorical question)
Canteen Day is basically a day where every class participates in selling food, clothes(?) and creating games for the outsiders(mostly the students' parents and friends from other schools around the area) to enjoy! Not to forget, this event is also a day for us(?) to make a move on our crush, lol! For those who are shy, I bet their bravest move is to buy stuff from their crush's class stall. (Been there, done that :p)
I remember buying 3 sets of coupons which is a necessity because it's the only payment method that is approved (No cash!) And I remember planning with my classmates on what food and drinks to sell. In the end, our group decided to sell spaghetti while the other groups chose roti jala, fruits, cake pop, sweet drinks and carbonated drinks!
A day before the event, me and Ami went to Sar's house to cut the onions. I wished I brought goggles to protect my eyes tho because man, bau bawang tu boleh bawak nangis! Now that I think about it, I've never entered Sar's house through the front door when she still live in GSH.
Anyway, everything was so fun! I help a bit in painting the banner! It was colorful and so neat & eye catching!
On the day of the event, I think we forgot to buy some plastic cups or something. So my classmates, the only one who can drive at that time *cough* Acap and Teha went to Mydin(?) to buy em' which leads to another memorable secondary school story! Hehe
Oh ya, 4 of my classmates were chosen(or they volunteered, hmm, can't remember) to be the mascots(2 cowboys and 2 red flowery ladies)! But I think Raz and Yazid, who were the cowboys didn't really do anything :p Lol jk. Hmm what else eh? Well back to the coupon story, my classmates bought 3 sets each and all of us automatically 'donated?' 1 set to the class. Everyone took turn jaga -ing the stall and I guess, everyone had fun just hanging out.
Ok rindu dah haha.
The best part is our class won in all the categories (There's only 2 categories btw! Ahha) We won collecting the highest amount of money (RM2k+ guys!) and the most coupons sold! (Lady G better be thankful that we bought a lot from you :p!)
Finals are coming up and I am trying to study consistently. I always listen to music when studying so here's my top 10 songs that suits me the most for the month of April which is also known for the month of revising!
Please note that there's no specific theme for this playlist! I just find them not distracting when I'm reading!
1. Lost Boy - Ruth. B
2. Little Do You Know - Alex and Siera
3. If You - Sumire Jane
4. High Hopes - Kodaline
5. Letting Go - Mayday Parade
6. Weight In Gold - Gallant
7. Come Back Home - Lauv
8. That One Song - G.nash ft. Goody Grave
9. Her Last Words - Courtney Parker
10. Lets Not Fall In Love - Super Junior
Forgiving happens naturally. The feeling grows out of nowhere because in order to move on, you need to forgive.
But do I need to forget about it? Do you? Well, some can forget easily and some couldn't. It all depends on how you view your life and what you want to achieve in your future. As for me, I get angry easily if I got betrayed especially by anyone who's close to me. And that never occurred to me for the past 18 years of my life till a few months after I turned 19.
At first, I was hurt. Then, every time the incident crossed my mind, I got angry and a little bit sad. I promised myself not to forgive this person until forever but guess what, I ended up accepting that person's apology. It felt nice. It's like this weight that I was carrying disappeared. But I never forget. Why? Because it's a lesson for me. The incident shall remind me that no one in my life last forever. No one will stay just because I wanted it that way. Life doesn't revolve around me. Therefore, I have to remind myself not to let my guard down. Ego exist for a reason so don't hesitate to use it.
Well, don't get me wrong. By doing these, you can still have fun and such. You're just being extra careful with who you invest your feelings. At the same time, don't let your memories be filled with just a person or two. Because at one point when they're a step ahead, climbing their way up to the top and leaving you behind (cs that's what life is all about), you'll feel empty.
Anyway, life is all about forgiving but never forget. Don't repeat the same mistake twice!
P/s: But don't take it too seriously, go out and have fun!