Okay I might have been gone for too long. 4 months to be exact.
I swear this is gonna be a long post cs like the title I just want to update you guys (or future me) on what I did for these past few months. It's been hectic and my emotions were all over the place; one week I was at peace and on other weeks I'm just running around finding a route to escape this life. Those are the times where it feels like someone or maybe my emotions were pouring fuels to the fire instead of trying to get rid of this ridiculous heat that could potentially burn me alive. Oh ya, talking about heat, there was this random two weeks where the sun was very generous with the amount of dry heat it was sharing.
So yeah, back with me documenting on what I've been up to recently.
ONE : A new semester by attending a Raya Themed Toastmaster's Club meeting!
This happened on the 2nd week of my 5th semester here in UiTM as an ACCA student. To briefly describe my first week; it was a plain. My first class was on Wednesday and I got confused whether I'm in the correct class according to the subjects I signed up to. I almost went out of the class but I triple check the schedule and to sum up, I was right in the first place. I was in the room I'm supposed to be at.
Anyway, the meeting was amusing. The members and supportive guests showed up; everyone was wearing their Raya clothes. I wore my Jubah cs I was feeling it on that day, lol.
TWO : A step back to document my RAYA for 2017! (w Family & Friends)
Warning. Uncounted pictures will be encountered if you keep on scrolling this post
Raya was, raya. The typical raya where eating is the main activity, followed by socializing with real people and then driving, from one place to another. The first raya felt heavy; I guess it's cs we all gained a few kg, didn't we? (pls laugh, im trying my best here)
We Raya-ed at a few of our schoolmates' houses too. We went to Wana's house but it felt a bit empty. I guess the main reason is because only 3 out of 9 of us could make it. We also went to Sol's a few days later; we went at different times so yea, the vibe was certainly different from what I'm used to.
I had fun at Soph's, Ain's & Ami's. BUT I felt really old when we were at Ami's house cs the first 3 of us arrived first and the younger humans were conquering the main area where we always hang around at, every raya. Lol dramatic. By younger humans, I meant Ami's younger sibs' friends who also go to same school we all used to attend. Hihi.
Looking at these pictures is making me miss my skin cs I'm having a terrible breakout nowadays and drinking tons of water is shockingly not a solution to my problem.
THREE : Hanging out with my term of APAcS
And the few of us are reunited once again, with the majority of us employed and one by one is getting married. Cha & I were an hour late but still sempat makan free cs our experienced working friends paid hehe. Then we spent a few bucks at the kids' arcade, we enjoyed our short time together. This was also the time where I have to admit that my driving skill sucks.
FOUR : Intellectual conference that I've no idea why I signed up for, like, it's not a concert izz
I forgot what we did but it's such an eye opener event for those who aren't that aware on what's currently happening with our country economically, politically and such. A great day indeed cs I remember what we did after the conference hihi. (We ate a lot, and we keep on eating and eating)
FIVE : Barbeque @PD with JT
Bukan nak kata apa, but we can clearly see siapa buat kerja and siapa tak.
Team buat kerja: Not me, I'm not too sure about the rest but I'm really glad Acap, Ami & Ain were there. Hihi
This particular day was a memorable one cs almost everyone was there. Except for Ammar cs he's busy with works at that time, sobs.
SIX : English Month by APTC! Dins as the PD
English Month is divided into 3 days. Each particular day has its own spices added into it making the day turned brighter and more enjoyable, hehe.
I also participated on the first day where the games were fill with positive energy and it worth my(/all of our) time. Great job Dinsdins!
Sadly I was only there on the first half of the second day but nevertheless it made me realized how I need to catch up with the standard of my daily words of usage. Cs dang, hats off to those who can spell those bombastic words the emcee was giving.
The last day was my favorite cs the room is dark and fairylights were dangling(?) from the ceiling making the venue look like a worthy tight-budget wedding. Lol tngh puji decoration cs I'm in that department for this event.
SEVEN : THEATRE
I actually have a lot of backstage pictures but not the ones I took after the play with my friends who came, sobs.
Theatre was fun but exhausting. The process from auditioning to waiting for the callbacks and rehearsing, it was long journey that I did not regret. Tbh I almost quit halfway but I changed my mind. Sumpah if nak cerita in detail, it'll be too long & I'm tired already haha, it took me 3 hours to get to this part of my update. I'm trying my best to finish this post by tonight because I've been wanting to write on my recent whereabouts & stuff I do since a month ago but.... I've no idea why I didn't. teehee.
EIGHT : BIRTHDAY SURPRISE BY APTC!! THANKS GUYS
The ONLY picture that I have because I was that surprised! To cut this short, the entire campus blacked out a few hours before the meeting but only the lights came back because of the back up power generator, I guess. We can't use the air conditioners & none of the plugs were working. We decided to change the venue from a classroom to an open air place.
A moment before the cake made its appearance, the lights were switched off but I thought the black out was happening again. Suddenly everyone started singing the happy birthday song which I thought was for the meeting initially. Cs they were emphasizing on how it's the 50th meeting when they were advertising this meeting, making hashtags and stuff. But then my name was mentioned in the song and then, I noticed what's actually happening, stupid me became smartizz. (get it? smarty izz but like smartizz, tlg gelak, thanks)
NINE : Annual Dinner. My first and my probably last dinner event as a student
YASSS we've come to the last major activity I recently did!
I wanted to spam with pictures but..... nah. cs malas and semua gambar senget menyenget.
Ok that's the end of this post. I'm currently struggling with the papers I'm taking and finals' in 3 weeks. sigh
What we need to understand is no one is able to understand what another person is going through.
The last couple of months, I fell into a phase where the light is difficult to see. I'm not saying my surrounding is always pitch black but it feels like I'm floating to nowhere. Do I feel lost? Not really. Do I know where I'm heading towards? The answer is exactly like the one in the previous question.
I do share my thoughts with my friends but after listening to their feedback, I realized I will never be genuinely happy unless the truth comes out from the only person that knows the answers to my questions.
And this made me realized, during those times when I listen to my friends hardship, how often does my advises actually hits them right in the feels? Probably one time, two or maybe never. Because like myself, they (the one going through a difficult period), know that what they are going through will never hits me (the listener), right in the feels anyway.
So what I'm saying is, it's okay for you to not understand someone. And it's okay for someone else to not understand you.
The problems you have right now, no matter what it is, has already been written to be as one of your past, it's the memories that will make you stronger in the future.
Those unanswered questions? One day, you won't be needing the answers anymore.
I've been gone for soooo long that I almost forgot the existence of this blog! I remember starting this as a diary meant to be shared with anyone who cares to read this blog, but I guess I've been busy making myself busy (if that make sense) to remember posting anything here, hehe.
So I recently met up with my friends & it was fun. The last time we saw each other was quite some time ago, maybe about 2 or 3 months back? I'm really glad that we all understand the beauty of our friendship is we can go on not talking for months but the moment we see each other, we're like... not awkward? Haha. Like in all seriousness, there's not even an inch of the awkwardness vibe.
As usual, not everyone could make it and it'll be more fun if everyone was around. But I'm pretty sure this raya there's a higher possibility we could hang out with one another.
P/s: The night we hung out was the night I realized I'm an old person in the inside. It was 10PM when I started yawning like crazy. I reached back home around midnight and I had the worst headache the next day after, for not sleeping early enough, lol.
It's never too late to start the "New Year, New Me" deal.
I have been constantly wasting my time everyday by scrolling through all the social medias back to back for the past few years. Today, (okay, a few minutes ago to be exact), I decided to delete all my accounts. I am officially free from Twitter and Instagram. I turn off the notification for Whatsapp too. Unfortunately I can't delete this app because it's the only way I communicate with everyone; family and friends.
For sure I will update you guys on how my 'new' life is, in a month time!
Carless: Someone who doesn't own a motor vehicle
Well, in my case, I ditched my car.
It all started when I live out of the campus area in my 2nd semester and the public bus is a convenient transportation but lets get real, driving a car is way better especially when you're late to class. (Psst, another alternative is to just skip class... jk!)
I'm currently on my 4th semester of ACCA and I applied for the uni dorms. I'm so glad I got accepted and class is just 5 minutes away by walking. This also means I've no reason to keep my Myvi car with me because obviously classes, sources for food and other basic needs are all accessible by walking. Thus, with a heavy heart and teary eyes, we parted ways; I went to Shah Alam by train leaving my car behind, sobs. Haha.
Registration day was shockingly exhausting this time round. If you're an ACCA student from UiTM, you would know why. (Well, most of you will probably know why anyway). I've always love the vibe on this day because you get to see your friends; the ones who are close to you and vice versa. P/s: I like them all either way.
Trying to survive. From Malaysia. 21. ACCA. Feel free to comment for any inquiries!